I was reading Scripture this morning and light shone on my heart. I felt the need to talk about the Lord about some wrong attitudes in me. I wanted to ask Him about those and let Him know I want Him to change my heart. I love it that He doesn’t lash out at us when we are wrong…
“MY DARLING. I LOVE YOUR OPENNESS WITH ME. I LOVE THAT YOU DON’T HIDE ANYTHING. THERE IS NO POINT, I SEE IT ANYWAY. THANK YOU FOR BEING OPEN WITH ME. I LOVE IT. I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE US. I’M IN LOVE WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP. I LOVE WHAT WE HAVE TOGETHER. I LOVE BEING WITH YOU. I LOVE THAT YOU KEEP COMING TO ME. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU. AND I LOVE THAT I CAN MAKE YOU SMILE TOO. CAUSE YOU MAKE ME SMILE ALL THE TIME. I THINK YOU’RE SO CUTE.
NOW, NOTHING CUTE ABOUT THE THINGS YOU MENTIONED, BUT NOTHING MY BLOOD CAN’T COVER. NOT ANYTHING TOO HARD FOR ME AND NOT ANYTHING I AM FREAKING OUT OVER. NOT ANYTHING I CAN’T HELP YOU WITH. SEE, MY OWN BLOOD DOES THIS. I AM COOL LIKE THAT. I LOVE CLEANING UP MESSES. I LOVE RESTORING. I LOVE FORGIVING. I LOVE MAKING THINGS RIGHT IN YOU AND I LOVE THAT YOU ARE WILLING. I AM WILLING. I AM MORE THEN WILLING. THESE THINGS I SHALL DO FOR YOU AS YOU STAY WITH ME. YES, I WANT TO CHANGE YOUR HEART. YOUR HEART IS MINE ANYWAY AND I CHANGE IT THE WAY I WANT IT, JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT. THANK YOU FOR BEING WILLING. THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST. I LOVE YOU”.
MY DARLING, I SEE YOUR SORROW. IT IS GOOD FOR YOU TO EXPERIENCE SORROW, EVEN FOR A MOMENT, FOR CHANGE OF HEART TO HAPPEN. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I CAN NOT LEAVE YOU IN YOUR OLD WAYS. I WANT TO CHANGE YOUR HEART AND I CAN PERFORM THIS TYPE OF SURGERY. I AM GOOD AT IT. YOU WILL NOT NEED ANESTHESIA BECAUSE IT WILL NOT HURT. YOU ARE FEELING SORROW BUT THIS IS NOT THE KIND OF PAIN THAT FOOLS WILL EXPERIENCE. IT HURTS FAR MORE TO CONTINUE LIVING AS A FOOL. I AM GOOD AT WHAT I DO. YOU CAN TRUST ME TO GUIDE YOUR REPENTANT HEART. I AM NOT LATE, NO. TRUST ME THAT I AM NOT LATE. THIS IS THE RIGHT TIMING. THIS WAS THE PROPER TRAINING. YOU ARE NOW WISER BECAUSE OF THIS ROUTE. ANOTHER ROUTE WOULD HAVE NOT DONE THE JOB. TRUST ME. REMEMBER I SAID I AM NOT IN A HURRY. YOU GO BY YEARS THIS PROCESS IS TAKING BECAUSE YOU GO BY HUMAN CLOCK. I DON’T GO BY HUMAN CLOCK. I WORK IN HEARTS, HOWEVER LONG IT TAKES ON YOUR CLOCK BUT I DO A PERFECT JOB. I DO NOT CUT CORNERS TO MAKE PROCESSES FASTER. THIS IS MY TIMING AND THE OUTCOME WILL BE PERFECT. YOU CAN TRUST ME IN THIS. EVERYONE WILL EXPERIENCE THEIR OWN PROCESS AND THEY ALSO WILL LEARN FROM IT. YOUR PROCESS IS UNIQUE AND THIS IS HOW I CHOOSE TO USE YOU TO BLESS OTHER LIVES. I LOVE YOUR REPENTANCE AND IT FEELS GOOD INSIDE. WHAT A FREEDOM. IT IS FOR THIS FREEDOM THAT I HAVE SET YOU FREE. DO NOT SUBMIT AGAIN TO THE YOKE OF SLAVERY, WALKING IN YOUR OWN WAYS. YOU ALONE WOULD CONTINUE TO SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND AM VERY PROUD OF YOU. TO ME YOU SHINE LIKE A STAR.
“yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, …..” (2 Corinthians 7:9-11 NIV)
I was reading an old journal entry, where I was searching my own heart before the Lord, bringing a list of possible sins that I thought could be present in my heart, asking Him to remove them if He saw them there. (Am I the only one who does self searching – aka beating oneself down?)
WHY WORRY ABOUT THOSE DETAILS? I AM HERE TO SET YOU FREE FROM ANY BONDAGE. LETS KEEP WORKING ON YOUR HEART. BE WILLING FOR ME TO WORK IN YOUR HEART. I WILL TAKE YOU TO YOUR DESTINY, YOU CAN COUNT ON ME TO DO THAT. THIS WORK IN YOUR HEART IS NOT YOUR JOB, I DO THAT. IF I MAKE YOU AWARE OF ISSUES, IT IS NOT FOR YOU TO TRY TO FIX IT. YOU CAN’T NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY. THE HUMAN HEART IS INTENSELY WICKED. I DO THE WORK. I NEED YOU TO BE WILLING AND OPEN. THAT IS WHAT I ASK OF YOU. ARE YOU WILLING FOR ME TO REMOVE THESE ISSUES FROM YOUR HEART? I DO IT FOR YOU. I PAID FOR THAT ALREADY AND I DO NOT INTEND TO LAY BURDENS ON YOU. ME EXPECTING YOU TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES YOURSELF IS LIKE PUTTING A BURDEN ON YOU I KNOW ALREADY YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO CARRY. MEN DECEIVE THEMSELVES IN THINKING THEY CAN HEAL THEMSELVES OF SINFUL NATURE BY TRYING HARD. ONLY I CAN HEAL THE SINFUL HEART. BE WILLING AND OPEN. ASK ME TO WORK IN YOUR HEART.
WHY THE FEAR? I DON’T FEAR THOSE SINS. THEY ARE SINS THAT HAVE BEEN AROUND FOR GENERATIONS AND EVERY TIME I DEAL WITH THEM THE SAME WAY. MY OWN BLOOD. THAT’S IT. MY BLOOD. NO OTHER RECIPE. NO OTHER WAY NOR OTHER REQUIREMENT FROM YOUR PART. JUST YOUR WILLINGNESS AND OPENESS.
Another time we discussed pretty much the same topic, just found His response, oldie, but goodie.