MY DARLING, I SEE YOUR SORROW. IT IS GOOD FOR YOU TO EXPERIENCE SORROW, EVEN FOR A MOMENT, FOR CHANGE OF HEART TO HAPPEN. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I CAN NOT LEAVE YOU IN YOUR OLD WAYS. I WANT TO CHANGE YOUR HEART AND I CAN PERFORM THIS TYPE OF SURGERY. I AM GOOD AT IT. YOU WILL NOT NEED ANESTHESIA BECAUSE IT WILL NOT HURT. YOU ARE FEELING SORROW BUT THIS IS NOT THE KIND OF PAIN THAT FOOLS WILL EXPERIENCE. IT HURTS FAR MORE TO CONTINUE LIVING AS A FOOL. I AM GOOD AT WHAT I DO. YOU CAN TRUST ME TO GUIDE YOUR REPENTANT HEART. I AM NOT LATE, NO. TRUST ME THAT I AM NOT LATE. THIS IS THE RIGHT TIMING. THIS WAS THE PROPER TRAINING. YOU ARE NOW WISER BECAUSE OF THIS ROUTE. ANOTHER ROUTE WOULD HAVE NOT DONE THE JOB. TRUST ME. REMEMBER I SAID I AM NOT IN A HURRY. YOU GO BY YEARS THIS PROCESS IS TAKING BECAUSE YOU GO BY HUMAN CLOCK. I DON’T GO BY HUMAN CLOCK. I WORK IN HEARTS, HOWEVER LONG IT TAKES ON YOUR CLOCK BUT I DO A PERFECT JOB. I DO NOT CUT CORNERS TO MAKE PROCESSES FASTER. THIS IS MY TIMING AND THE OUTCOME WILL BE PERFECT. YOU CAN TRUST ME IN THIS. EVERYONE WILL EXPERIENCE THEIR OWN PROCESS AND THEY ALSO WILL LEARN FROM IT. YOUR PROCESS IS UNIQUE AND THIS IS HOW I CHOOSE TO USE YOU TO BLESS OTHER LIVES. I LOVE YOUR REPENTANCE AND IT FEELS GOOD INSIDE. WHAT A FREEDOM. IT IS FOR THIS FREEDOM THAT I HAVE SET YOU FREE. DO NOT SUBMIT AGAIN TO THE YOKE OF SLAVERY, WALKING IN YOUR OWN WAYS. YOU ALONE WOULD CONTINUE TO SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND AM VERY PROUD OF YOU. TO ME YOU SHINE LIKE A STAR.
“yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, …..” (2 Corinthians 7:9-11 NIV)
DRINK IN ME MY LOVE. TRULY DRINK IN ME. ITS MY PRESENCE THAT GROWS YOU. ULTIMATELY ITS MY PRESENCE THAT GROWS YOU. LIKE ITS A MOTHERS MILK THAT GROWS A BABY IN SIZE AND IN HEALTH AND IN NOURISHMENT. YOU CAN’T GROW YOURSELF IN THESE AREAS. YOU CAN LEARN A LOT FROM OTHERS AND APPLY. BUT I GROW YOU WITH MY PRESENCE. THAT’S WHY MY WORD SAYS THAT HE WHO LACKS WISDOM, LET HIM ASK OF GOD. YOU DON’T LEARN WISDOM FROM READING. YOU BECOME SMART BY READING AND GROW IN KNOWLEDGE. BUT YOU LEARN WISDOM WITH ME. LIVING WITH ME. LIVING WITH MY SPIRIT. DWELLING WITH MY SPIRIT. LET MY LOVE GROW YOU LIKE THE SUN AND WATER GROW TOMATOES. JUST REST IN ME AND GROW. JUST REST IN ME AND GROW. THIS IS THE BEST WAY FOR ME TO EXPLAIN IN HUMAN LANGUAGE FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND. I AM PLAIN. I AM DOWN TO EARTH. TOMATOES TAKE UP WATER AND DRINK IN THE SUN. AND THEY GROW. THEY JUST DO. AND THEY TURN RIPE IN DUE SEASON. THEIR COLOR CHANGE. THEIR SIZE GROWS. NOT BECAUSE THEY WERE STRIVING TO DO SO. THEY JUST TAKE UP WATER AND DRINK IN THE SUN. AND THEY GROW. WHY DON’T YOU DO THE SAME. JUST STAY ON THE VINE AND GROW. DRINK UP IN ME, THE SON, AND GROW.
After I was done journaling that section, I thought I’d go read Scripture and guess what passage I find in front of me! So I used all the things He just told me and replaced the original words just for my own sake. And it was like “wooooow”!!! He is so down to earth in explaining so we understand Him……
“For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to WHEN WILL YOU FINALLY REACH YOUR GOAL, WHEN WILL YOU FINALLY BECOME THE PERSON YOU ASPIRE TO BE. Is not life more than THESE GOALS? Look at the BABIES IN THEIR MOTHERS ARMS, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them AT THEIR MOTHER’S BREASTS. Are you not worth AS MUCH AS they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life OR MORE WISDOM? And why are you worried about YOUR GROWTH? Observe how the TOMATOES IN A GARDEN grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so GROWS TOMATOES WHICH ARE ON A VINE today and tomorrow ARE FLUSHED DOWN THE TOILET, will He not much more GROW you? You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, WHEN WILL I REACH MY DESTINY? For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you DESIRE all these things. But DRINK IN MY LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE DAILY, and all these things will be added to you. “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ( ADAPTED FROM Matthew 6:25-34 NASB)
How would you like to get pruned by God? That’s the conversation we were having. I was telling God that knowing Him, He’d work exactly in the areas you fear the most or prune you of the areas you value the most!! That is not fun at all! It hurts!!
WHEN I WALK WITH YOU, YOU ARE SAFE. EVEN IN PAIN YOU ARE SAFE. YOU ARE NOT SAFE HAVING A PAINLESS LIFE. MY PAIN DOES NOT CAUSE GRIEF. BUT WOE TO HIM WHO LIVES FOR HIMSELF AND STEERS HIS OWN SHIP. HIS SHIP WILL BE THROWN AGAINST THE ROCKS AND HE WILL SUFFER MUCH LOSS. YOU DON’T LOSE AS YOU WALK WITH ME, EVEN IF THERE IS PAIN. TEARS MAY LAST THROUGH THE NIGHT, BUT JOY COMES IN THE MORNING WITH ME. I LOVE YOU. I CAN’T SAY IT ENOUGH.
Good morning, Daddy, God. I guess I am a little nervous that I don’t see any fruit as yet from all my work this month.
I SAID BEFORE AND WILL REPEAT… YOU WILL GET NO GLORY FOR THE WORK I WILL DO, I REPEAT, I WILL DO. THIS IS MY DOING, THIS IS MY TIMING AND YOU WILL REST IN ME. YOU WILL WORK WITH JOY BECAUSE I WILL AND HAVE GIVEN YOU JOY. YOU WILL PUT YOUR NOSE TO THE GRIND AND WORK AND BE FAITHFULL. I AM HE WHO GIVES INCREASE. THAT PART YOU CAN NOT DO YOURSELF. I DO MY PART WHILE YOU DO YOUR PART. SEE, WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER. I CAN DO IT ALL BY MYSELF BUT I WANT YOUR PARTICIPATION. AND I ONLY WANT YOUR PARTICIPATION BY BEING FAITHFUL AND BY BELIEVING AND BY TRUSTING AND ESPECIALLY BY RESTING IN ME. THAT IS ALSO YOUR PART. DON’T FORGET THAT IMPORTANT PART.
YOU CAN FRUSTRATE YOURSELF BY TRYING HARD FOR RESULTS OR YOU CAN TRUST ME. YOU CAN BE MAD YOU ARE NOT SEEING FRUIT OR YOU CAN REST IN ME. WHICH DO YOU WANT TO DO?
Just Chit Chatting with the Lord.
Lord, I am soooo stoked about personal growth. I wrote out my list of my top 5 influencers.
He responded: “I AM HAPPY I MADE THAT LIST. I AM HAPPY YOU ARE IN MY SPACE DAILY AND THAT I AM NUMBER ONE. I WANT TO KEEP THAT SPOT.
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU MY DAUGHTER. YOU ARE CHANGING FROM GLORY TO GLORY. THIS IS WHAT MY SPIRIT DOES IN YOU. IT IS EFFORTLESS. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU SUBMIT TO ME. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU CHOOSE TO PUT ME FIRST. I TAKE CARE OF CHANGING YOUR HEART AND YOUR SURROUNDINGS AND YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES. KEEP COMING BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH MORE FOR YOU”.