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You will submit. But to whom?

Tonight I was struggling internally with my fleshly nature! I really wanted to act in the flesh! But I had just prayed last night that God would set me free from this. And tonight already I was put on the test. I sat there struggling. I knew what my flesh wanted to do which was the wrong attitude. But I ended up doing the right thing. I did what I knew I should do. I fixed my attitude. But later I sat down to journal. “God. I didn’t like feeling that way, having that struggle. I just prayed to be free. How can I be free, Jesus?? How can I know I am free?”

“YOU ARE FREE IN THIS – TO MAKE YOUR CHOICE. THAT’S HOW FREE YOU ARE. I HAVE GIVEN YOU FREE WILL. YOU CAN WALK IN THAT FREEDOM TO MAKE YOUR CHOICE DAILY. WHAT WILL YOU CHOOSE? WHOM WILL YOU LISTEN TO? TO MY SPIRIT OR THE FLESH? BOTH SCREAM AS LOUD. AND YOU HEAR BOTH. YOU CLEARLY HEAR BOTH. THAT’S THE FREEDOM YOU HAVE. TO KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG AND CHOOSE. I DONT BIND YOU. I LET YOU BE FREE TO CHOOSE. YOU TELL ME HOW YOU WANT TO BE FREE”. 

“Yes, my Lord Jesus. You are right!!! I hear both very loudly!!! Very loudly. Knowing I should submit to your Spirit who is nudging me and feeling that sinful nature rising. Can’t I be free from feeling that sinful nature rising?”

“YOU LIVE IN FLESH AND BLOOD. SIN WILL ALWAYS LURK. IT SEEKS YOUR LIFE. IT SEEKS TO BIND YOU. TO CONTROL YOU. YOU WILL WALK IN SUBMISSION. BUT TO WHOM? YOU WILL OBEY. BUT WHOM? YOU WILL BOW. BUT TO WHOM? I WOULD THAT YOU WOULD SUBMIT TO ONLY ME. THAT YOU’D OBEY ONLY ME. THAT YOU’D BOW TO ONLY ME. AND YET I GIVE YOU THAT FREE WILL. I NEVER TAKE THAT FREE WILL FROM YOU BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO CHOOSE TO LOVE ME. ON YOUR OWN. NOT FORCED. YOU ARE FREE MY DARLING. WALK IN FREEDOM”. 

The Pain Of Change

MY DARLING, I SEE YOUR SORROW. IT IS GOOD FOR YOU TO EXPERIENCE SORROW, EVEN FOR A MOMENT, FOR CHANGE OF HEART TO HAPPEN. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I CAN NOT LEAVE YOU IN YOUR OLD WAYS. I WANT TO CHANGE YOUR HEART AND I CAN PERFORM THIS TYPE OF SURGERY. I AM GOOD AT IT. YOU WILL NOT NEED ANESTHESIA BECAUSE IT WILL NOT HURT. YOU ARE FEELING SORROW BUT THIS IS NOT THE KIND OF PAIN THAT FOOLS WILL EXPERIENCE. IT HURTS FAR MORE TO CONTINUE LIVING AS A FOOL. I AM GOOD AT WHAT I DO. YOU CAN TRUST ME TO GUIDE YOUR REPENTANT HEART. I AM NOT LATE,  NO. TRUST ME THAT I AM NOT LATE. THIS IS THE RIGHT TIMING. THIS WAS THE PROPER TRAINING. YOU ARE NOW WISER BECAUSE OF THIS ROUTE. ANOTHER ROUTE WOULD HAVE NOT DONE THE JOB. TRUST ME. REMEMBER I SAID I AM NOT IN A HURRY. YOU GO BY YEARS THIS PROCESS IS TAKING BECAUSE YOU GO BY HUMAN CLOCK. I DON’T GO BY HUMAN CLOCK. I WORK IN HEARTS, HOWEVER LONG IT TAKES ON YOUR CLOCK BUT I DO A PERFECT JOB. I DO  NOT CUT CORNERS TO MAKE PROCESSES FASTER. THIS IS MY TIMING AND THE OUTCOME WILL BE PERFECT.  YOU CAN TRUST ME IN THIS. EVERYONE WILL EXPERIENCE THEIR OWN PROCESS AND THEY ALSO WILL LEARN FROM IT. YOUR PROCESS IS UNIQUE AND THIS IS HOW I CHOOSE TO USE YOU TO BLESS OTHER LIVES. I LOVE YOUR REPENTANCE AND IT FEELS GOOD INSIDE. WHAT A FREEDOM. IT IS FOR THIS FREEDOM THAT I HAVE SET YOU FREE. DO NOT SUBMIT AGAIN TO THE YOKE OF SLAVERY, WALKING IN YOUR OWN WAYS. YOU ALONE WOULD CONTINUE TO SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND AM VERY PROUD OF YOU. TO ME YOU SHINE LIKE A STAR. 

“yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, …..” (‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭7‬:‭9-11‬ NIV)