Tonight I was struggling internally with my fleshly nature! I really wanted to act in the flesh! But I had just prayed last night that God would set me free from this. And tonight already I was put on the test. I sat there struggling. I knew what my flesh wanted to do which was the wrong attitude. But I ended up doing the right thing. I did what I knew I should do. I fixed my attitude. But later I sat down to journal. “God. I didn’t like feeling that way, having that struggle. I just prayed to be free. How can I be free, Jesus?? How can I know I am free?”
“YOU ARE FREE IN THIS – TO MAKE YOUR CHOICE. THAT’S HOW FREE YOU ARE. I HAVE GIVEN YOU FREE WILL. YOU CAN WALK IN THAT FREEDOM TO MAKE YOUR CHOICE DAILY. WHAT WILL YOU CHOOSE? WHOM WILL YOU LISTEN TO? TO MY SPIRIT OR THE FLESH? BOTH SCREAM AS LOUD. AND YOU HEAR BOTH. YOU CLEARLY HEAR BOTH. THAT’S THE FREEDOM YOU HAVE. TO KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG AND CHOOSE. I DONT BIND YOU. I LET YOU BE FREE TO CHOOSE. YOU TELL ME HOW YOU WANT TO BE FREE”.
“Yes, my Lord Jesus. You are right!!! I hear both very loudly!!! Very loudly. Knowing I should submit to your Spirit who is nudging me and feeling that sinful nature rising. Can’t I be free from feeling that sinful nature rising?”
“YOU LIVE IN FLESH AND BLOOD. SIN WILL ALWAYS LURK. IT SEEKS YOUR LIFE. IT SEEKS TO BIND YOU. TO CONTROL YOU. YOU WILL WALK IN SUBMISSION. BUT TO WHOM? YOU WILL OBEY. BUT WHOM? YOU WILL BOW. BUT TO WHOM? I WOULD THAT YOU WOULD SUBMIT TO ONLY ME. THAT YOU’D OBEY ONLY ME. THAT YOU’D BOW TO ONLY ME. AND YET I GIVE YOU THAT FREE WILL. I NEVER TAKE THAT FREE WILL FROM YOU BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO CHOOSE TO LOVE ME. ON YOUR OWN. NOT FORCED. YOU ARE FREE MY DARLING. WALK IN FREEDOM”.