Today I am torn.
It is half time and it’s ‘make or break’.
On one side the Lord, my Coach, is loud about “Resting in Him”.
On the other side, the pressure of all I could lose in two weeks.
“Does the Lord mean don’t bother”?
“Do I even understand Him when He says ‘Rest'”?
“Am I failing others by not leading by example if I don’t try harder”?
“Does He intend to do a last minute miracle if I try while I rest in Him”?
What if I push while “resting in Him”?
Does ‘resting in Him’ merely mean ‘trust’ while I give my best?
Or does ‘resting in Him’ mean don’t run ahead of Him, performing?
If it means ‘trusting’, not ‘performing’ and I push anyway, I may fail His test?
I’ve been around this block before, seems like too many times…
Why can’t I get it right?
In moments like this… I am afraid to get it wrong when I ask Him.
But either way… one thing is unshakable: HE IS FOR ME AND WITH ME.
Maybe this is why the Lord shared with me yesterday that Roses are Roses.