I was just going over an old journal from 2012 and I came upon this one entry… I remember that season. It was not a fun one. But God took me through that season of silence…
I dont know what to talk about. It feels awful that I have nothing to talk to you about. How awful that we can’t discuss anything. I wish we had something to discuss, even if it was ministry or anything. There is nothing. I know that is fine with you. I feel like we are sitting silent next to each other. Doesn’t silence bother you? Don’t you have anything you want to talk about? Anything deep you want to discuss?
NOT YET, I AM HAPPY HERE SITTING NEXT TO YOU AND I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY TOO. I LOVE YOUR COMPANY AND I DON’T MIND US BEING SILENT. THIS IS LOVE ALSO. I LOVE YOU WITOUT WORDS EVEN. I SIMPLY LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU TO SIMPLY LOVE ME. NO WORDS OR DISCUSSIONS ARE NECESSARY TO EXPRESS OUR LOVE. REMAIN IN ME. I AM SILENT FOR A SEASON. BE OK WITH IT.
I didn’t know you wanted to be silent. I had a great run with you journaling and I thought that is what you would want daily of me. I realize there is no condemnation if we are silent, but it is a shock that you actually want to be silent for a season. That you don’t mind it. Can we discuss being silent then? I guess then we wouldn’t be silent. This is weird.
I AM NOT GIVING YOU THE SILENT TREATMENT. THIS IS NOT PUNISHMENT. THIS IS REFRESHING. YOU CAN RELAX. I AM YOUR GOD AND I LOVE YOU. WE LOVE EACH OTHER IN SILENCE. YOU CAN HAVE PEACE IN SILENCE BECAUSE YOU KNOW I HAVEN’T LEFT YOU. ENJOY THIS SEASON OF SILENCE. I LOVE YOU THROUGH IT.