I was reading a testimony from the “HEAVEN IN BUSINESS” Facebook Page where someone was sharing a testimony how they were doing an exercise where they were giving up lies they’ve been believing and then asked God what He wanted to give them instead. I knew right away what lie I had been believing because I’ve been pondering about this lie for a while now and I couldn’t seem to get rid of it and how it affected my thinking and even my work performance.
I sensed some familiar words… “COME DRINK FROM ME. I CAN CALM YOU IN A DEEPER WAY THEN YOU NOW KNOW. STAY IN ME. THIS SOUNDS FAMILIAR, YOU MAY EVEN BE TEMPTED TO DISREGARD IT. I MEAN YOU TO REST IN ME”.
I indeed wanted to just quit my prayer time because I felt “rest in ME’ wasn’t enough for me right now. I even closed my journal intending to just move on with my day. But then it dawned on me that I still didn’t give up the lie, I just brought it up before the Lord….
“LORD, I give you this lie. I surrender it to you. Take it from my hands. I don’t want it anymore nor do I need it. I hate this lie. I break agreement with it. I don’t embrace it any longer. I want it gone from my thinking”.
I cupped my hands before me as if giving this lie to the Lord and closed my eyes and pressed in to ‘hear’ or sense Him. Soon I started feeling prickling sensation in my hands and what I could ‘see’ is like when paper is lit with fire and how the red glow consumes the paper even while there is no actual flame. I waited and suddenly I felt heat in my hands. I started crying as I felt this was a real encounter. I waited a few more seconds as I sensed the burning of that ‘paper with lies on it’. Then I asked God what He wants to give me instead. The only thing I ‘saw’ was a picture of white cloth (maybe a white kitchen towel or white linen napkin?) being draped over my cupped hands and then I sensed that if my hands were like a bowl, a bread roll was in it and the white cloth draped over it. I just sat there until I sensed nothing else. Not sure what the bread roll and the white cloth represents. But I trust His work is done.